broken heart
i'm not supposed to love you
i'm not supposed to care
i'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there
i'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do
i'm sorry i can't help it cause i'm in love with you :((
i'm always loving you
will you be mine ?
but it's all only a fantasy in my dream
you my heart , you my soul , you my life too .
but it was just a dream , only a dream during the day
between us is not going together .
you make me open my eyes , see the world . love the natural look
and i guess right , love you just to have it . not to be loved
and you will see the real world later on , you will feel pain for your life . the pain that you held for me , you will feel the situation . how its hurt . then you might be looking for me , find the beauty of you waste . do you dispute over this . you my life , you are mine . see you , see me . but , my royalty remains intact for you . i will be there for you , any time . but , if the word love is already owned by someone else . i just want to say , you are part of my life . i love you and i want to apologize for what happened near you for you know me . you will see me one day , you will know who i am later . for a second time , you really make me throw you away . after you stole my heart first . and now , you're kind of left me alone . i knew i was innocent . now , i open my eyes wide . i soak up the feeling that you are not anticipated . i dive into yourself , i see your feelings . are you sick with what i do ? and you want to forget me .
the harshness of my heart , until yourself already fed up with me . awak baliklah pada saya !
only you can soften my heart , you know myself-control , my heart . and you are able to melt it
i'm so sorry ! 'kerana ego , saya menyesal'
saya tahu saya salah dengan awak . awak jangan laa bia saya berayat jiwang jee .
saya boring awak takde :( awak penyeri saya , saya sayang awak T_T
i will change myself , i would soften my heart . i will try !! awak ! saya minta maaf , saya janji tak keluar kata-kata kesat tuu kat awak lagi , sorry awak ! saya tak sengajaa , saya janji sayaa takkan emo tak tentu pasal , awak !!! (T_T) *grr ! jiwang glee . stop it ayn !!
stop to begging !! i'm so so sorry babe , iloveyou . i surrender , i was wrong with you .I'M SORRY LOVER.
sayang untuk lupee kan :( tapi , semuanyee dah berlalu . tak mampu untuk undurkan mase untuk kitee . kau milik dia , dan aku sendiri . mencari ketenangan :( mencari kegembiraan , mencari keceriaan . lepas , apee yang disisi aku kini pergi . mencari misi hidup yang pasti , to my besties . sayang korang sangatsangat ! be strong and courageous in finding life . insyaAllah kite jumpee lagi dgn anak bini / laki masingmasing . haha :D kekuatan kitee dah berkurangan , SPM kitee dah tak same tmpat lagi . tiada gurau senda yang harihari kite cetuskan :)) cepat nye mase berlalu .
kini masanyee utk perbaiki kehidupan aku , dalam setiap tahun tuu tak sah kalau takde kesedihan , keperitan . tapi semua tuu adalahh warna warni kehidupan . kite kena kuat , tabah , sabar . miskipun ianyaa adalah satu keperitan yang perlu ditahan :(
p/s untuk awak ; saya sayang awak , sentiasa ! saye jadi kuat sebab awak , sayee sakit sebab awak , sayee sedih sebab awak , sayee gembiraa sebab awak , sayee tabah sebab awak , sayee sabar sebab awak :( sayee belajar erti kehidupan sebab awak . awak adalah sayee , lihat awak , lihat laa sayee . antara kitee byk yang same , kekerasan kitee , jahat kite , baik kitee . tapi satu jee , kesetiaan awak susah untuk sayee duga . sayee tak percaye awak , sayee was-was dgn awak . sayee risau dgn behaviour awak . sayee tak selami diri awak . ego kitee , seimbang . kite macam magnet , kekuatan kitee same . chemistry kitee utuh , tapi bezanyee . awak adalah seorg lelaki yang mungkin pasti berubah hati . naluri wanita sayee awak tak miliki . panas baran kitee , susa nak duga . itu lah awak , itu lah sayee . dari riak wajah kitee , susah nak duga perasaan kite. kite selalu cool , sdgkan hati Allah jee tahu . relax nyee awak pada sayee , saye pun mcm tuu . saya minta maaf sangatsangat dengan awak :( dan kalau sempat sayee nk ckp kt awak , saye rindu sangat kat awk . biarpun sayee nampak tenang , tp hati saye bergelora . saye rindu awak guraau senda dgn sayee , smmgnyee saye yg patut ckp yang sayee bersyukur sebab dpt message dgn awk balik :( saye sayang awak , saye rindu awak sangat !

thanks sebab buat sayee berhenti menunggu , saya sayang awak , sayee rindu awak , bye .